the time as we could call it "Blue". im nbw in the Super Blue situation.
as the time in the morning was so stunning. i have a nice bed time, shopping time and ice cream time.
i have a fabulus walking time with my sister and friend.
but it's all just like change as i entering my room.
the air just like saying "I know it! I know it!" with the annoying expression ever and the bed is changing his size to tiny, the condition which i can't sleep anymore like losing appetite.
and when i get this blue. my phone alarm is ringing "Ex Birthday"
What a perfect joke before sleeping,right?
and then i see my fathers picture and can't handle the eyes..
nope... im not crying. just my vision is blur. and my heart feels like stubed.
anyway,
Life must go on..
i cant hiding in the shadow of my past.
and what i regret now is, why i have been dreaming of the same guy in hte same situation?
while this guy is having no intention on me.
you don't see the connection between the other's story with this one, right?
ha ha ha, it's my blog tho, no matter i want to do here, is none of your business :P
okay, off being rude.
Bye then.
(i swear i will laugh out lot a couples years later when i'm seeing my writting)
"I feel like nothing of your concerned. Not even in a minute im the part of your life. Not even in a moment i ever enter your life. Not even my existence counted as precious, not even single thankful you said for what i'm alive :'( . then who i am in this crowded place.. a trash for your empty glass? a bed for you laying down? or just another bottle to fill your half empty cup in? im just so dumped...... you never counted me in."
that's the words i want to say to him. soooo emotional. and he will answer with a single "huh" and if i insist it will be a long silly fight between nobody.
and what im thinking is
"if you cant find a man you want, then become a man you wanted to be."
dont asked...
by the way, there's a young man (actually i dont know how old he is) make me his crush.
he's a lil bit frighten me. he's text me almost everyday. quite a stalker is he?
or anyone fall in love always like him?
am i doing that things too? ooppsss!!
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